The Fog

Thursday, November 09, 2006
Current mood: calm Category: Life

So i have times in my life that i call the fog, where my head is fuzzy and everyday is a mission to get through. I'm not normally one who likes to let on too much about the fog mostly cause it doesnt help to complain but also because of how society does not understand. It all starts with a cold - or lets just say a group of symtoms that could be like a cold. And then i just start feeling tired and achy. And it not just tired, it is exhausted. when you feel like you cant function because you it is such a mission to just move your body and let alone try and even think straight. So what is this about...well i have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. And that is actually just saying that the symtoms and viruses are there but they can really pin point the actually causes.
This all makes for some very frustrating times. Living with the symptoms but having no "reason" for them - well this is what the world likes to think. My reason is well...because it is my life.

So the point of this is to say that i'm feeling quite upbeat this week because as is life, things are in cycles and i feel that i'm coming out of the last fog that i've been in and that is just so exciting to me - days where i can get through work and still have enough engery to do anything else other then crawling up in bed to try and sleep as much as possible only to wake up feeling more tired then when you went to sleep.

I'm even been going to the gym this week which is a serious accomplishment. Almost just wanted to post "i've been gyming" nice and big for future posterity.
So also for the record i just wanted to say that CFS is NOT a mental problem that one can just snap out of. Yes it effects your mental state causing you to feel seriously down and mentally just not able to see your way out of the fog. ...

Ok - so i could go on forever about this... but i wont bore you all. BUT if you are interested then here is a link where there is a whole load of information about it. Just remember that the professionals even still arguing about all the realities of CFS.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chronic_fatigue_syndrome
The representation below is also gives a good idea at how conplex this is with all the interconnecting problems that one lives with.